This is my no holds barred story, the truth in all its gory details. It’s certainly not a romance, although, it had its moments.
My life didn’t turn out how I envisioned it, but looking back I can’t say I regret it either, and I’ll explain the reason, or reasons for that in my story.
It all went wrong when I was seventeen-years-old. However, it wasn’t all a picnic up to that point either. Well, nearly nineteen-years later and I can tell you, it’s true what they say, you learn by your mistakes, and boy, I made a lot of them.I was pulled through the ringer, and left feeling lost, alone and confused. So much so, that I’m sucked deep into my own mind. Lost inside my own mind I became comfortable, it was a place that I could hide. The darkness inside my own mind became my respite, my shelter and a buffer from the devastation of my own broken dreams. I became trapped there as I searched in circles for answers, surviving but not living. I was torn up by guilt, and felt as though I was being punished for perceived faults. Confusion and turmoil became my only companions.
I needed to escape, to start living again, but did I have the strength to crawl out, and escape the void? Better yet, did I want to, because if I did, would I still recognise myself?
Travel with me through my earlier life. It may make you uncomfortable as I bluntly describe that time for you, but it’s a form of therapy for me. Whenever memories of my past become too much for me, I now have something to hold onto; my four children.
When the darkness becomes too much, thoughts of them pull me into the light. They were, and still are, my saving grace, my redemption of sorts.
**BE WARNED: Some descriptions are vivid and can be a trigger for sensitive readers.
**Suitable for ages 18 and over
I love writing and reading, living life with my family, and always coming up with new ideas and putting then in to practice.Words have a way of healing someone, so I will carry on writing, included events that have happened and taking you all on a journey with me.
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